Life of a Surrogate

Next plans

2012-01-21T22:53:00.002-06:00

Okay. So my IM has another egg donor. So we are planning a fresh transfer in march. Probably the 25th. Should be getting calendars soon!!! Cant wait to be able to have a for sure date and have something lined up. I feel lost without knowing the plan. So now I am ready to go since we finally have one.

We are in the process of buying our first house. So we have been busy anyways. We close the forst or second week of February. I am anxious and excited. I hate moving but will love it once we are in the house.

Nothing New

2011-12-28T19:24:00.002-06:00

I have no new stuff to report about Surrogacy. I had bloodwork done yesterday and it is still not back to 0. So I go again next week. Other than that we are on hold still.

I am however buying a new house. We found one we like and put an offer on it. But there are like 6 other offers on it and still more could come in. So we are not getting our hopes up. If this one dont work out then we are back to looking. Just wanted to say hi and let everyone know there is nothing new to tell yet :)

moving forward

2011-12-14T09:31:00.003-06:00

Well.. I am ready to move forward. The miscarriage was hard on all of us... But we r ready to move on to the next step. My IP's wanna take the holidays off so we can enjoy them and have no other stress. So we will be starting again in January or February. They needed a lil break. My body is back to normal. Did Bloodwork today to make sure my beta is back to 0. Just wanted to update all of you so you know what is going on.

miscarriage :(

2011-12-07T21:57:00.002-06:00

Tuesday night I started bleeding. Then it got worse. I couldn't get off the toilet and there was clots and cramps. I figured I was having a miscarriage but was hoping it was not true. Called RE. They had us come n this morning to have an ultrasound. There was no sac :( actually the Dr thinks the baby stopped growing about a week ago. It was a sad day for us all. I hated seeing my IM leave the Dr crying. I just want to help them become parents soo bad. They deserve it. No one should have to go through all of this. We will have another game plan soon. We will not give up.

4 weeks 6 days

2011-12-02T23:29:00.002-06:00

Will be 5 weeks tomorrow! Very excited. I just wanted to update my symptoms.. I have been feeling nauseous, gassy, and some weird feelings n the lower abdomen. I would describe them as like a pulling, digging type of feeling. And some crampy feeling too. It's been this way for days now. I thought one baby by my beta number of 103. But then it more than tripled to 320 in 29 hrs. Which I still kind of figured one baby. But now I gave been having the digging feeling in 2 different spots like I did with the twins. So it is making me second guess my singleton theory. But then again u just never know what these weird feelings I am feeling n my lower abdomen really are. So I have to think about it till Friday at the ultrasound.. which means u have to wait to :p

4 weeks and 4 days

2011-11-30T17:59:00.002-06:00

Things have been going good. I have been nauseous just about every morning and on and off throughout the day. As to be expected. I try not to complain because I am happy to be pregnant for B&T but it is our nature to complain. Lol. I have already gained 8lbs since I had to start the Meds :-( I had to start them 3-4 weeks before the transfer so I have been on them for about 6 weeks. The steroid and the PIO r the reason for the weight gain. I don't mind gaining weight for a pregnancy. I just feel this weight was not needed (dang Meds). But hopefully it levels out. It's sad I look pregnant already and I am only 4 weeks. But like I said. It happens Everytime with the Meds. So I'm sure it will all level out sometime. I feel like the 9th is forever away!! I just wanna see the lil bean and hoping so badly to see the heartbeat that day too. I can't wait to see the smiles on *his* Daddy and Mommy's face. The reason I say his is because they don't wanna find out what the baby is. So we agreed to say he because I am gonna find out and I don't wanna slip. So I figure if we start calling the baby a he now I won't slip. Lol.

2nd beta

2011-11-28T22:12:00.003-06:00

Got my 2nd beta today. At 11dp6dt it was 320!! It tripled! Woohoo. Now we wait for ultrasound. I'm guessing one. My ultrasound is the 9th at 8:45 am and the 16th at 8:45 am. I will be 5 weeks and 6 days at my first ultrasound. So we may not see the heartbeat. If not we will at the second ultrasound. My IM is so excited. IF will believe it more when he see's a heartbeat and I don't blame him. They have been thru so much. Can't wait for them to see there babies heartbeat!!

Got bloodwork

2011-11-26T11:54:00.001-06:00

My results from today are 103. This is a nice number. I am happy to hear a nice strong number for one lil bean. We won't know it is one till ultrasound. But by the sound of this number its pretty promising its only one. I am just happy for my IP's. Next beta is Monday. We need it to double!!

Me & IM

2011-11-26T11:22:00.002-06:00

Wanted to share this picture of my IM and I after transfer. :-)
I told her the news by showing her the pictures last night. She was very happy! I am so happy to be helping them become a family!!

I am on left. She is on right

spilling the beans

2011-11-26T11:14:00.003-06:00

Okay. Bloodwork was done this morning. I'm waiting for the fax to come in. I put my fax number on the orders so I get the results at the same time as the Dr does. ;)

I do have to come clean.. I told IM last night so I can spill the beans. I got a super faint BFP at 5dp6dt. I have been POAS everyday about 3xs. The line is much darker now. I am gonna powers the pics on here.

5dp6dt 1pm

6dp6dt Noon First Response Early results test

6dp6dt 3pm

8dp6dt Noon

9dp6dt 7:30am today before Bloodwork

5dp6dt

2011-11-22T17:10:00.003-06:00

I have been testing about 3-4xs a day since Sinday night. LOL. I know. I am crazy!! Anyways. I cant post results. I just wanna keep a journal of all my symptoms so I can look back at it when I need to.

I have had cramping, lil weird feelings, LOL. Very gassy (I know TMI) but hey I need to be honest here and keep track of things I feel. I am naesous off and on too. We all know the neds give me all the symptoms. So dont try to read into any of this! I know my IM may be stalking here to see what I say. Sorry T. U have to say you wanna know or I dont tell you :p

2011-11-22T17:07:00.003-06:00

So just got back from dinner with my IP's and they do not wanna know my POAS results. Well...... actually IF does not wanna know. I can tell IM does but she is afraid she will slip. Idk if she will make it till blood work on the 26th. Lol. So unfortunately..... I cannot update with POAS reports on here. She has access to my blog and if she wants to read it she would see the results. Lol. So I have to be good and not post on here about it. Sorry!!! I know u will all be dying to know. If she gives n and asks me then I will post it on here after I tell her. So for now I just post all my craziness of symptoms and and things. We all know the symptoms can be from the meds so that does not give anything away. Please keep ur fingers crossed for us :-)

Also noticed this one did not post. This was from November 17th the evening of transfer!!!

2011-11-22T17:06:00.001-06:00

Transfer went good. It was around 2:45 pm today. IM's embryo did not make it but we thawed the 4 and got 3 embryos to put in. They r grade 2 and day 6 embryos. I really really really want this to work for my IP's. They really deserve to be parents. She said her husband does not wanna know about the POAS results!! So I am not gonna tell them. It's gonna be hard to not to tell them if I get a BFP. Plus I may not be able to post on here. If she checks this then she would know. So I have to figure out where I post. Lol. I know she dont have FB so it is safe there. I will let u guys know if I can keep u updated on the POAS results after dinner with my IPs tonight. Send all the sticky vibes u have my way please!!

Sorry I just noticed this didnt post. So I am posting it now.

Transfer tomorrow!!

2011-11-16T18:39:00.003-06:00

It is finally here. It seemed like forever away and it caught up to us fast. We are planning to transfer 2 of the donor frozen embryos which are day 6 embryos. And the 1 fresh embryo of IM's that will be a day 5. Not sure of the time yet. They said they would call us in the morning. But I am guessing it will be about 11 or 12 ish. We are all very excited the day has finally come. After the transfer I will come home and then in the evening we will be going to dinner. My kids will be getting to meet them for the first time!! I had a trigger shot on the 11th so I will probably poas tonight to see if there is any of it left in me. If so I will poas again Friday probably. That way I will know it is a real positive when I start POAS!!

Wish us luck and lots of sticky dust!!

eggs left

2011-11-15T14:18:00.001-06:00

IM ended up with only 1 egg that fertilized out of the 2 thy got. We r still positive and hoping for the best. We will thaw some frozen and transfer those with the fresh. Please keep prayers and positive thoughts coming out way. Transfer is Thursday in afternoon.

update on retrieval

2011-11-13T23:11:00.002-06:00

So egg retrieval was Saturday. IM got 2 eggs. We found out yesterday that one fertilized. So now we just hope this one stays strong and makes it to transfer on Thursday. If so we will probably transfer her one and 2 from the donor that r frozen. I REALLY want this to work for them and for them to have a baby. I couldn't imagine them spending the holidays with bad news. I am very hopeful it will work tho and very excited about this transfer.

retrieval

2011-11-11T23:55:00.002-06:00

Saturday (tomorrow) is retrieval. Please send prayers, or positive thoughts for my IM. We will take all we can get. If her embryos make it then transfer will be Thursday. If hers do not make it then transfer will be Wednesday with the donor embryos. I started my progesterone shots tonight and my antibiotic and my Ovidrel. So things r really moving along. I will update after retrieval tomorrow. :-)

transfer

2011-11-08T16:48:00.002-06:00

IM had her ultrasound yesterday. They only saw 2 maybe 3 follies. So now we keep our fingers crossed and ask for lots of prayers for her to end up with 2-3 embryos out of that. If not we have the 4 frozen from the donor. Just really want this to work and her to get some from her retrieval... Dr is planning the retrieval to be Friday or Saturday. We are all hoping for Friday. If its Friday transfer will be the 16th. If it is Saturday it will be the 17th.

I had Bloodwork and ultrasound today. My lining is at 15!! Which is great. So we are ready and waiting. I can't wait for this to work and for them to have a baby. And.... We should have a BFP on a test by Thanksgiving!!! Actually a few days before!!

getting closer

2011-11-03T22:06:00.002-05:00

I have been counting down the days! Even though it is hard to do with a fresh transfer cause the days can change a few. But I am very excited and can't wait for the transfer to be here. You all saw my pee sticks I have ready. I really want this to work and be able to make my IP's dream of a baby come true. I go for blood work again tomorrow morning. And I have an ultrasound Tuesday to check my lining. My IM has an ultrasound to check on her eggs on Monday. Fingers crossed for her please :-) I would love for her to end up with 2-3 embryos to transfer. I will keep you all in the loop.

meds

2011-10-30T22:54:00.004-05:00

The Meds r treating me good. No complaints really. I am on 5 units Lupron, Dexamethasone, prenatal, and E2V which is Estrogen. So not bad at all. The E2V is shot form in my hip/butt area. Yuck. But its only every 3 days or so. I am counting down the days and looking forward to the egg retrieval. Should be around the 11th or so. I have been stocking up on pregnancy tests too. I have 35. I am trying out some new ones that Wal-Mart just started carrying for .88 cents. I heard they r pretty good. So of course for .88 cents they had me hooked. Lol. I bought 10. Here is a pic of 29 tests. I had found 6 more in the cabinet when I put these away. LOL

lupron

2011-10-21T11:38:00.002-05:00

Today is day 2 of lupron. Not bad so far. Can't complain cause it could be worse. I can't believe how close the transfer is. I'm very excited. IM (T) and I had dinner Tuesday. She gave me my Meds and we had a great girls dinner with lots of chat. We r planning to meet up again Monday or Tuesday so we can chat some more and so I can give her the gift I got her. I will post a pic of it when I give it to her s she doesn't see it on here first.;) I will keep u all updated!!

Transfer Date

2011-10-08T15:45:00.001-05:00

I have a Calendar!!! So far I start Lupron on the 20th and then the transfer is set for the 14th or 16th depending on if it is a 3 or 5 day transfer. I am hoping for a 5 day so fingers crossed. And of course this is a fresh so the date can change a few days depending on when she is ready for retrieval :-) Just wanted to update me followers!! xoxo

calendar soon

2011-10-07T16:41:00.002-05:00

Had my Bloodwork done and it came back good. Then had ultrasound and it went good. RE said I should have a calendar today or tomorrow. I can't wait. I know being a fresh transfer it will change by a couple days but I will still b excited to get a close date. I will definitely post once I have it n my hand. And as of right now I have 11 pregnancy tests! I plan to have at least 20 at time of transfer.

Transfer news

2011-09-29T21:32:00.003-05:00

So the RE emailed today saying we can make November!!! They faxed my blood work orders over so I can go and get them done tomorrow while Jerimy is off work to help watch the kids I have while I run up there for a few minutes. I also have to get an ultrasound done so I am gonna call tomorrow to try and make and appt to get that done one day next week. We have contracts going and r very excited to be moving along so fast! More good news is my IM is gonna do an egg retrieval in November too. She does not produce eggs well so the Dr said she will be lucky to get one embryo but we r keeping our fingers crossed for 1-2. If not she has 4 frozen from a donor so we have a backup plan if needed. But I am really keeping my fingers crossed for her to get 1-2 of her own. I will keep u guys updated!! I am so happy and excited for this cycle :-)

Matched!!

2011-09-25T18:42:00.002-05:00

So my meeting with the couple i was talking about went great! We absolutely love them!! We have worked out pretty much everything and agreed to match. We are hoping to get things going quickly. Hopefully I don't need to re do many tests with the RE. Then things can get going fast. They are contacting there attorney tomorrow to get things in motion and we will be getting a hold of the RE to see what we need to do to get things going. I wanted to update u and let u know how things went. I am so happy to be helping B & T become parents!!! :-)

maybe matched

2011-09-20T13:18:00.002-05:00

I have spoke with several different IP's. I think I finally found the match for me. Its a couple from Saint Louis which means they r only 45 mins from me. They are our age and have no kids. They are also using the same RE we used with the twins and he is actually the one who gave them my info :-). We have been texting and emailing for a week and we are meeting for dinner tomorrow evening. I can't wait!! I will keep u updated..

looking again

2011-09-06T22:11:00.002-05:00

So Ray and Ale decided they r done. And I don't blame them. They have there hands full and are blessed. So now I am looking again. I have been talking to a couple from here in MO like me. Only like 3 he's away. So we will see where this goes. I am always a little nervous when matching cause I don't wanna have a bad journey.

a small update

2011-08-31T19:24:00.002-05:00

Well.. After thinking about things. I have decided I wanna match again. I really wanted to do 2 full journeys and I have only done one full one. It is killing me that I have not done a second. So now I wait for Ale. Her and Ray wanna make sure they want more kids. She wants one more and he is not sure. I don't blame him cause they have 3 and things are already crazy. Lol. So she told me they will talk it over and give me an answer at the end of the weekend. If they decide not to do another journey then I will be looking to match again. I went to the SMO classifieds and there are a couple IP's close to me. In Missouri and surrounding areas. So I guess I wait to see what Ale decides and then make my next move. :-)

update

2011-08-20T15:11:00.003-05:00

Sorry I didnt get a chance to update. I never got a BFP :( So I had beta Friday and it was negative as we knew it would be. I feel so bad for IP's. They are so sweet tho. They always tell me its okay and act all strong for me but I know it is hard on them... Thats was our last try. We agreed to 3 tries and that was it. Now next year there former surro tries for them again. I am gonna be doing one transfer with my former IP's also. They have 2 frozen and wanna give them a chance at life. This couple is the couple I carried twins for. It is Ale and Ray!! So we r now gonna be in the process of getting things going. They only have 2 tho so it will be one shot. After that weather it works or not.. I dont know what I will do. I wanted to have 2 full journeys but so far have only had one. So if this does not work I may try again. But then again I may be done. I am just playing it as we go to see what we r gonna decide. I will keep u posted. Thanks for following along!!

6dp6dt

2011-08-15T13:27:00.002-05:00

POAS this morning and it was negative. This really sucks. I know my IPs wanted an addition to there family. There old surro will be doing another transfer with them some time next year so maybe that one will work and they will get there lil bundle or two. I will be cheering them on!!

5dp6dt

2011-08-14T18:07:00.003-05:00

POAS around 5:30. It was negative. I really should have a positive by now. I realize the chances r slim now but I always hold on to hope. This is my last transfer with my IPs and I really wanted this to be it for them!! I do believe everything happens for a reason. So I know God has a plan.

If this transfer does not work my former IM mentioned she is ready to transfer her last 2 frozen embryos. She said October but we can't be ready by then. So I am thinking maybe it would be possible around November or December. So I will be doing one more transfer for sure. After that I may be done with surrogacy. But I can't make any promises yet :-)

4dp6dt night

2011-08-14T00:30:00.001-05:00

POAS and negative. So night and will repeat n the morning.

4dp6dt morning

2011-08-13T09:24:00.002-05:00

I POAS this morning and it was negative. I saw that most girls on SMO got there BFP on 4dp6dt. Which is today for me. I am hoping that I get one today also.. I POAS this morning and it was negative. I usually get my positives in the evenings anyway. I won't POAS again till tonight. Gonna see my surrotwins today :-) can't wait. Its been a yr!!

3dp6dt night

2011-08-12T22:47:00.003-05:00

I have been horribly nauseous around 5-6pm the last 2 days and it has lasted a few hrs. It can't be morning sickness this early right?? Maybe its the meds. I know they can do it. Just never happened to me like this. Ugh. I POAS at 10:30pm and it was negative. I will repeat n the morning. Night

quick pee update

2011-08-12T14:38:00.001-05:00

I peed on a test at 1 and it was negative. Again it is very early. I just like to get used to negatives so when I see the second line I am ready!!

3dp6dt morning

2011-08-12T11:04:00.002-05:00

I POAS at 7 am and it was negative. I figured it would be cause it is to early. But I couldn't help myself :-) I will keep u all up to date. I will prob POAS again around 1 today :-)

2dp6dt

2011-08-11T20:43:00.002-05:00

Today was not so great. Started out good. But right around 3:30 I had a horrible wave of nausea. I had me running to the trash can several times. And the more I moved the worse it got. I had to sit down for a few mins and slowly get up and it still was yucky. But I got through it today and still was the good wife who made her husband dinner since today was his birthday and did cookie cake and ice cream. And also took my kids to the school open house so they could meet there teachers. So I was a good mommy and wife today. LOL. Just wanted to update u all. Oh yah. Everyone knows by now I am POAS (Pee on A Stick) aholic. So I plan to POAS tomorrow morning. If I get a positive in the morning I will be scared. LOL. I could get one as early as tomorrow evening. But prob not likely till Saturday or Sunday. So I will update as things happen :)

1dp6dt

2011-08-10T21:17:00.002-05:00

Doing good. Had a lil bit of a pinching feeling this evening. And some more nausea today. So not much to report. My husbands bday is tomorrow so hopefully the day goes by fast so I can't start POAS on Friday. I am gonna try to wait till the evening. We shall see. Lol.

this evening

2011-08-09T21:52:00.002-05:00

So far on the way home I had some light cramping and I was a lil nauseous. I have never done a 6 day transfer before. But with a 5 day I usually get these symptoms around 2-3 days after transfer. Sine the em Ry is a day older I guess I would get them around 1-2 days after transfer. So hopefully these r good things. I like to document my symptoms so I can look back when I do a transfer and see what symptoms I had and if it worked or not. I do remember light cramping was always good before. So fingers crossed.

transfer went great!!!

2011-08-09T16:30:00.002-05:00

Had transfer this morning around 11:15. We put n 2 6 day frozen embryos. They were both graded a 2AB. Everything went great and now we are almost back home. Only a couple hrs left to drive. A friend sent me 15 pregnancy tests and I had 4 from last time. So I have plenty to feed my addiction. Since it was a 6 day transfer I will start POAS on Friday which put me at 3dp6dt. I will keep u guys updated on things..

transfer is n 2 days

2011-08-07T19:23:00.001-05:00

Wow the time has flown. We drive to Chicago tomorrow evening and have the transfer Tuesday morning. Then drive home right after. Can't wait to be preggo for my IP's

appt

2011-08-01T07:28:00.002-05:00

Had my second appt. My lining was a 9 and estrogen was 1600 something. They wanted my lining to be at least a 6 and estrogen at least 150. So my numbers look great!! I have my last blood work and ultrasound on Wednesday and the transfer the 9th. We will drive to Chicago the night before and then back home right after transfer. Its all coming so fast.

hey

2011-07-24T17:59:00.002-05:00

Been on Lupron for over a week and it is not being to mean this time thank goodness. I was on 20 units for a week and now down to 5 units. I had some head aches and lil nauseous but that's it. Nothing to bad. I started the patch and the Estradiol pills. So now the headaches will go away!! wooohoo. Getting excited for the transfer. But now i am not looking forward to the butt shots. LOL

New Transfer Date

2011-07-08T19:04:00.002-05:00

We are ready for our next transfer!! It is scheduled for the 9th of August!! Cant wait. We r transferring 2 frozen embryos. I am on BCP now and start Lupron Thursday. Ugh. I hate that drug!! But I guess it means we are getting one step closer. Other than that I have been busy with my family and work. Cant wait for August to get here.

Hey

2011-06-21T15:02:00.002-05:00

Sorry I have been MIA. Just trying to focus on moving forward. IP's are waiting to hear from RE. We are hoping for a late July or Early August transfer. Waiting for period to come which will help decide that. Otherwise not much to report. I hope everyone had a good Fathers Day. Will update when we know more.

it happened

2011-06-05T13:37:00.002-05:00

I started my period Friday late. Woke up at 3 am Saturday and I was bleeding a lot. At least now no D&C. And now we can move forward with our next attempt at making there family larger. That's all for now.

nothing to update

2011-06-03T07:20:00.001-05:00

Just didn't want u guys to wonder what is happening. I still have not had my period. I have some cramping everyday but that's it.. really hoping it happens soon. I have however healed emotionally. I mean I do think about what could have been. But am also ready to look forward and give my IP's the bigger family they r wanting. As soon as my period comes we will know more.

Todays results

2011-05-31T13:56:00.000-05:00

I had the ultrasound again today. The RE said they needed to see a fetal pole or I would stop meds. There was no fetal pole or heartbeat and the sac did not really grow any. I think it stopped growing. :( Now I wait for RE to call me. I am sure they will tell me to have a D&C and then a period and then we start again. So probably looking around July or August. I hate going through all this and then having nothing to show for it. And I am sad for my IP's. Prayers they r able to heal quick emotionally and that we are on our next attempt at adding a lil one to there family again soon :)

6 week 4 day Ultrasound

2011-05-27T17:04:00.002-05:00

I just got the call from the RE. They said I am still measuring about a week behind which they are not real worried about.. BUT... the yolk sac is a lil enlarged. This could be a few things. One thing is it could be just they way it was measured cause everyone one measures different. Or it could be a chromosome issue. Which could be why we haven't seen a fetal pole. So I am obviously hoping everything is fine and Tuesday will show the fetal pole and heartbeat and that this lil guy is fighting!! I am calling this lil booger a he.. Cause my IP's have 2 girls already LOL. Plus it takes a fighter to still be going. And this one is a fighter so far.. So He is gonna be fine and Tuesday he will prove that to us :)

6 weeks and 1 day

2011-05-24T21:12:00.001-05:00

Nothing new to really report. I have an Ultrasound and BW to check my Progesterone this Friday. I have been very lucky and not much sickness the last few days. Actually feeling pretty good besides being tired. Can't wait to go Friday to see this lil ones Heartbeat tho!!! :-)

Update

2011-05-20T17:53:00.001-05:00

So RE called and was so happy with todays results. They did not think things would be good! They were so happy to hear that we saw a yolk sac. She also said they put the measurements n that the U/S gave and it shows I am 5 weeks and 3 days. So I am on target. She doesnt know how the Tech had 4 weeks and 3 days!! She is very happy and they are having me go next friday for another U/S hoping to see a HB and for BW to check my Progesterone!! Woohoo..

5 week 4 day U/S

2011-05-20T10:17:00.001-05:00

Okay. I went in for U/S this morning. We saw a Sac and Yolk. Both things the RE wanted to see. I am measuring 4 weeks and 3 days. So a week behind. RE has not called yet. I am guessing they will say go back in a week. I am wondering how often this happens and things are okay. I will be asking that when they call. Hoping things are fine and I am staying positive :)

19dp5dt Beta

2011-05-19T13:12:00.000-05:00

My beta today was 2822. 3 days ago it was 1374. So it did double. I am still cautious but really hoping things will be okay when I go for U/S tomorrow. A girl in our group on SMO just had another U/S today. She had a heart beat a week ago and now today none. :-( Its sad. I am trying to stay positive tho.. Will update tomorrow.

Appts

2011-05-17T09:22:00.000-05:00

I made my BW appt for Thursday which is 72 hrs from the 1374 number. So it needs to double plus some. And I changed my U/S from Thursday to Friday morning. So I will update after each of them!!

RE

2011-05-16T17:46:00.002-05:00

The RE finally called. They said it did double but still not quite as much as they hoped. So they are being Cautious. They want me to do BW and U/S again Thursday. So I am hoping everything will be okay. She said to let them know if I have any of the pain like they described to me cause they worry it could be ectopic too. But she also said they think a twin may have started and stopped and thats what messed up my beta's and hopefully everything is okay.

16dp5dt.

2011-05-16T14:24:00.002-05:00

My beta came back at 1374. 1158 would have been double the 579 I got Friday. So it doubled plus a lil. Hoping that's good. Waiting for the RE to call. I think they will send me for an U/S the end of this week. I am 5 weeks today. So we may not see a HB this week. But at least we will know how things look. I think that there were twins and one stopped growing. Just hoping things look good at the U/S.

Ugh.. I hate waiting

2011-05-15T17:33:00.002-05:00

I know it is tomorrow morning. But I hate waiting to find out if everything is okay. I want this lil one or ones to be okay and no problems. I cant wait till tomorrow around 10:30 when I will get the results!! Then again if they are bad it will not be what I wanna hear.. But at least we will have an answer. Please send some prayers that everything is fine!!

update

2011-05-13T13:11:00.003-05:00

Okay so I went in for me 12dp5dt BW and it came back at 446. They should double every 48-72 hrs to be a viable pregnancy. So it was 48 from my 302 beta. So they had me go in today for another BW and it was 579. Which was 72 hrs from the 302. So it didnt completely double. But there are some cases things like this happen. But normally when the beta does not double like it should it is not a viable pregnancy. So the RE is thinking it was twins and one vanished and thats y they didnt quite double.. But also it could be bad. So I go back Monday for BW. Hoping it is 1158 or higher. Which would be todays beta doubling. Then late next week and U/S. Fingers crossed everything turns out okay and it is a viable and healthy pregnancy.

Tomorrow 2nd Beta

2011-05-11T19:45:00.000-05:00

I have my 2nd Beta tomorrow. I will be 12dp5dt. 2 days ago it was 302. So we want it to double. I will guess.... 818. Which is also my bday. LOL

Results

2011-05-10T12:25:00.003-05:00

Just got the fax. My beta is 302. I am 10dp5dt today. That is a strong number and I am very happy!! I am still going with my gut and saying twins!! Next Beta is Thursday morning again. We need it to double. Fingers crossed!!

Other than that I am having headaches, nauseous, and tired. But that is all to be expected right?? LOL.

10dp5dt bloodwork

2011-05-10T07:04:00.001-05:00

Had Bloodwork done this morning at 7:30. Results should he coming in at any time!! Can't wait!!

9dp5dt 4 weeks today!!!

2011-05-09T14:23:00.002-05:00

I am 4 we pregnant today!! Which means my IP's are one month closer to haveing there baby/babies!! yay. I took a pregnancy test this morning at 7 am. I am posting a pic of it. Tomorrow mornin is my blood draw (Beta). I should have the results by around 11am. They fax them to me and RE at same time so I dont have to wait till 4 pm for the RE to call us!! Right now as we speak I am having some very yucky morning sickness. Mine is never really morning. It is more of an all day sickness. It comes and goes whenever it feels like ti through out the day. Hope fully it will only last for 20 mins or so. I never throw up tho so thats a good thing. I just gag and feel nauseous. Just wanted to update all my followers :-)

3 weeks and 5 days

2011-05-07T15:55:00.001-05:00

Today I am 3 weeks and 5 days pregnant. I am already noticing fatigue, frequent peeing, and a lil nauseousness. I am still gonna say that I believe that I am pregnant with twins. Just have a feeling. But I could be wrong. We have bloodwork on Tuesday early and I should have the results by 11am. That wont tell us for sure if it is one or two but if the number is high it is a sign of two. I am guessing I will have an Ultrasound at 6 weeks which is in 2 weeks. I will keep everyone updated!!
:-)

6dp5dt 7 pm

2011-05-06T19:44:00.003-05:00

Here's my test from tonight. Just thought I would share for everyone who is following our journey!! I spoke with my IM last night. She is so happy. I love hearing the excitement n her voice!! That's what it is all about!!

7pm report 5dp5dt

2011-05-05T19:47:00.004-05:00

Tonight at 7pm I poas again!! LOL. You know I am addicted :p Heres tonights picture!! It has only been 12 hrs and it has got darker already!! I am so happy for my IP's!! We did it!!!!

5dp5dt

2011-05-05T11:44:00.004-05:00

Okay so I got a BFP yestrday at 4dp5dt at 1pm. It was very faint so couldnt get a picture. Today I got a picture and am posting it. I have a feeling it is twins but still hoping it is just a singleton. I have had mild cramping that went on and off since day 1 after transfer. Then I have had some mild sick feeling. Nothing big. Here is todays picture from this morning.

4dp5dt

2011-05-04T11:36:00.001-05:00

I poas this morning and it was a BFN. Didnt expect it to be positive anyways. I just like to start POAS on day 4. LOL. I have never got a BFP any earlier than 5dp5dt in the evening which would be tomorrow evening. And it was twins that time. So we shall see.

3dp5dt today

2011-05-03T09:49:00.002-05:00

I am trying to hold out till tomorrow to POAS. I know its to early today!! I have 10 tests from a friend. They r like the cheap ones on the internet and the ones Dr's use. I may buy 4 FRER today. I have had some mild cramping and some sick feeling every once in awhile throughout the days. But I try not to read into all that to much. I will keep u all updated!!!

Transfer

2011-04-30T20:36:00.003-05:00

Okay so we had a blast n Chicago!! Took the kids and Hubby and we went to Lego Land, Shedds Aquarium, American Girl, Gino's, and Ed Debevics. All great places. We stayed n a hotel on Michigan Avenue which was right next to Water Tower mall!! So we had a good night of shopping and walking. Then transfer was this morning.

Re said one of the 12 embryos was graded a 1AA. Which is the best. So they said we should probably only do 1. But my IP's wanted to do 2 and I was fine with that. Our last transfer did not work and we only put 1 n that time so I understand. This is not cheap to keep doing. So we put n 2. The 2nd embryo was graded a BB. So they were both good. I will start POAS on Wednesday which makes me 4dp5dt. And my actual woodwork will be May 10th. Thanks so much to everyone who is following along!!! Now the fun begins :)

Egg info

2011-04-27T08:09:00.003-05:00

I got a call yesterday saying as of then there were 12 fertilized eggs. So today I should get another update. They said it should be a 5 day transfer!! So lets keep our fingers crossed.

Retrieval

2011-04-25T13:52:00.003-05:00

They did Egg retrieval today. Waiting to hear an update on how many they got from the donor. Figuring I should have one by the end of day.

I have tried to update a lot but the blog is not letting me publish them. I am hoping this one will work.

I had all my U/S's. Which were 4,6,3. Then we freaked cause my lining went down. So i went to a different place and it was 8 1/2 to 10. So we realized it was an error and it wasnt really a 3. Whew. So we are set for a transfer on Thursday if it is a 3 day or Saturday if it is a 5 day which is what we are hoping for.

Life has been crazy. We just celebrated 7 yrs of marriage and very happy about that. My husband planned an awesome night away. And he pulled it all off well!!

Thanks for following along. Again I am sorry about taking so long to update. The website has been giving me problems. Hoping it lets this post go through.

Lupron

2011-04-03T18:40:00.003-05:00

Okay.. I have been on lupron for a couple days now!! I so dont miss this medicine :(
I have my 1st U/S and BW to check things this Thursday. Then one on the next two Wednesdays. The transfer is coming up so fast!!

Also.. I changed my profile pic to a pic of me and my surro twins but it hasnt changed :( It changed under the about me section on the side of my page. But not on my main pic. What am I doing wrong??

2011-03-23T15:20:00.001-05:00

Just wanna say I absolutely LOVE my agency (Family Source Consultants)!!! They sent me a just because gift today out of the blue!! They are amazing and know how to make someone feel special!!

I start lupron the 31st!! Would say cant wait but I am soo not looking forward to those headaches that come along with the lupron. But at least its getting so close to transfer!!! Woohoo

Been a long time since a post!!

2011-03-16T13:17:00.002-05:00

So I heard from the Nurse Coordinator and she gave me a calendar. Looks like we will be doing a fresh transfer the end of April (29th). Being a fresh transfer things can change by a couple days. So as it gets closer we will know more. But as of right now the retrieval is set for April 24th which happens to be our Anniversary and Easter! then transfer is 3-5 days after. Which is usually 5 days. We are planning on taking the kids this time so my IP's can meet them and my kids get to meet the couple we are helping. I think it means more when they see them and know they are real. Pictures are just fake to kids. We are planning on taking the kids to a fun place or two the day before transfer and going to dinner at my IP's house that night. Then transfer the next day. We may have to be there 2 days before. Not totally sure yet. Which is fine to cause it gives us more time to site see. I am super excited to get things going. Never happy about the meds but that just means we are getting closer :)

And dont forget I sell scentsy!! They make great gifts and make your house, car, locker, gym bag or whatever you prefer smell good. We also have stuffed animals with scent packs n them and warmers for nursery's. And right now we have the Piece by Piece warmer that is for Autism. 100% of the net proceeds go straight to Autism Speaks!! Go on my website and look around!! And spread the word for me :)

https://kimeaker.scentsy.us/Home

Thanks a bunch!!!

Still hoping for April

2011-02-23T20:18:00.002-06:00

No news yet! My IP's have an Egg donor so we r just hoping to make April still!!

I do wanna say that I just started seelling Scentsy!! I love the products! For those that dont know what they are. They are wickless candles!! And they smell soooo good. I have an Open House party on my website right now. I am submitting the order this Sunday. Its the last week for the Fall catalogs. If you wanna order something go to my website and click on open house party and have it sent to your address!! Thanks everyone for following my journey! I hope to have news soon!!!

My website kimeaker.scentsy.us

Hugs

Results

2011-02-04T14:41:00.002-06:00

Bloodwork came back Negative.. So now we are planning a Fresh transfer of 2 embryos and hoping for Aprilish.. We have to speak with the RE next week to find out for sure. But thats what we are hoping for!! So now we have something else to look forward too..

Bloodwork is done!

2011-02-04T08:18:00.002-06:00

Okay now we wait. LOL You thought I had results didnt you?!?!? Hahah. I should have the results around 10 or 11 ish. I always have my home fax number on the paperwork with the Dr's fax so I get the results quickly and dont have to wait till 4pm when Dr would call!! I will update when they come in. But as of right now I am prepared for a negative beta because I have not gotten one positive test...

9dp5dt

2011-02-03T13:44:00.001-06:00

Okay ladies. I have tested everyday and not even a faint line. Which means this cycle is a bust for us :( I have my beta drawn tomorrow morning. There is still a very slim chance it could be positive but VERY slim. So I am expecting a negative beta tomorrow!! We will just prepare for the next transfer and keep our chins up!!

6dp5dt

2011-01-31T19:23:00.002-06:00

I have been POAS since about 4dp5dt. Morning and night. So far only BFN's (Big Fat Negatives):( I am really hoping for a BFP tomorrow!! Just wanted to let you all know how it is going.

3dp5dt

2011-01-28T10:33:00.001-06:00

Well it has been 3 days since transfer and suprisingly I still have not poas! LOL I am doing good at being calm about it too this time :) I am still planning on POAS tomorrow sometimes probably. And I will let everyone know what happens :) It is still early so I dotn expect a BFP. But will love if it is one!! LOL So bye until tomorrow...

Transfer Complete!!

2011-01-25T20:53:00.002-06:00

I had my transfer this morning. Now there is one lil Embryo snuggling in!! I went to Chicago and had transfer. Then went and met the lady that owns the agency I am with. I have never got to meet her till now. By the way if you ever need a good agency Family Source Consultants is GREAT!! Love em. Ask for Zara. And tell her Kim E recommended you :)

After that We(husband and I) went to eat lunch with 2 surrogates that I have not got to meet before. One of which I have been talking to by text for over a yr. So I was very happy to meet her finally!! AND she gave me 10 pregnancy tests!!! Woohoo. I cant wait to use them :-)

Then we drove all the way home. Now relaxing. I will try to hold off from poas til Saturday (4dp5dt). I am hoping i can wait till Sunday but we all know that wont happen. LOL. I will be sure to keep you guys updated on how it goes!!!

Better

2011-01-19T13:01:00.001-06:00

Okay. I had my U/S on Monday and my lining went from a 3 to an 8!! And my Estrogen went from 30 something to 1600 something. So they were happy. I had my last one today. Waiting on the results and also they have to tell me the rest of my meds schedule. Transfer is still set for Tuesday!!

U/S & BW update

2011-01-13T21:25:00.002-06:00

Wednesday I had a both. My lining was a 3 and my Estrogen level was a 30 something. They were hoping for a 6 lining and 150 estrogen. So they had me start my esrogen pills and now I have an U/S on this Monday and Wednesday to see how things are going. Just wanted to update!!

Meds

2011-01-08T14:36:00.002-06:00

I am so sorry. It has been like 2 weeks since I have posted. I guess I am just not as into it this as i was my last journey cause I cant post my IP's names and have to keep private. That is not me and I am always so excited and love to share my journey. I am gonna try to get past that and keep blogging for my followers.

I started meds the 27th. Lupron is the one I do not like. I always get bad headaches with it!! And usually mood swings but i think i did good with that part this time. I just decreased lupron to 5 units a night. So hopefully the headaches will be gone. And I also started the estrogen patches which always help when I start Estrogen. I had my 1st U/S and BW (Bloodwork). Everything was good. My next one is Wednesday and there is another one the Wednesday after that one. The only shots I take are Lupron and Progesterone. Everything else is patch, pill, or suppository. So not to bad. I cant believe transfer is coming up so fast. It will be here the 25th!! And We will have 1 Frozen Embryos to thaw and transfer!! Woohoo. We are hoping to do breakfast with my IP's before the transfer and to have lunch with some Surrogates & IP's from the Chicago area. Then drive home. So should be a good day. The Dr said that doing to lunch would be just fine cause I will be sitting and that driving home after the transfer would be fine to cause I would be sitting. So now we just take each day as it comes and get my body more and more prepared with all the yucky meds I have to take to convince it its pregnant. Looking so forward to the 25th!!! Let's start this New Year off with a Bang!!!

Merry Christmas!!

2010-12-25T18:34:00.002-06:00

Of course Santa and Family was far to good to us!! We have had a great week of Christmas and still have one more place to go this Tuesday. Our kids are so happy and have enjoyed every minute of it!!!

Well We are signing contracts and having then to the RE by Monday. I start meds Monday so we cut it close but we are making the deadline!! Whew.. I am very excited to be starting meds Monday. Well except for the Lupron!! I usually get yucky headaches and a bit moody from it. Hopefully it will be good to me this time. I cant believe Christmas is already hear and the New Year is only a week away!! Where did the time go?? I am just so happy to be transfering in a month!!!

Hope everyone had a very Merry Christmas!!

Hey!

2010-12-13T21:44:00.004-06:00

It has been a busy few months. With the Holidays it is hard to keep up with everything.

I am on BCP and start Lupron the 27th!! So right after Christmas. Then I have 3 U/S and Bloodwork Appts. The 5th, 12th, and 19th of January. Then Transfer the 25th of January. So everything is coming very fast. I am wanting to start buying some Pregnancy tests but also telling myself I wont buy a lot this time cause I dont wanna waste the money. LOL. I know I will probably have at least 10. I always buy the FRER casue they are my favorite!! I am hopign to control my addiction of wanting to POAS until 6dp5dt. But I doubt I will make it that long. LOL. I will probably start poas around 4 days after transfer... I am not good at being Patient!! hahahah.

I am almost done with my Christmas shopping. Got a few more things to get and then done and ready to start enjoying it. We start opning at this Sunday at my moms and then we have 4 other places to go to also before Christmas. On Christmas day we stay home and enjoy of family time in our PJs.

I hope all of you have a Great Christmas!!

Transfer Date

2010-11-26T22:36:00.002-06:00

First I wanna say I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving!!

I got my transfer date. It is January 25th!! So we drive in the 24th. Stay the night and transfer the 25th. Then meet up with some other surros and IP's for a lunch and then drive home. I am very excited. We are transfering one embryo so our chances are 50/50. I know it is going to work. I am very positive. I have been starting to check prices of pregnancy tests. My favorite is First Respose Early Result (FRER). I will start buying them slowly. I will start taking tests on January 30th in the morning. I start meds the end of December and we are working on contracts now!! Let the fun begin!!! And then before we know it my IP's will have another lil bundle to add to there family!!!

Starting

2010-11-18T14:10:00.001-06:00

I was told to start BC pills again today. And the nurse said I should have my calendar (transfer date) by the end of next week. So right now there is not a whole lot going on. We r working on contracts and I am starting BC pills. As soon as I get my calendar I will be letting you know. I cant wait to get a date cause I am hoping to have a surrogate/IP get together with other surrogates and IP's while i am there for transfer. So we need a date so we can start planning :-)

Update from RE & IP visit

2010-11-15T20:16:00.002-06:00

Had a great Visit on Friday!! Met with the RE and my IP's for the 1st time!! The Dr and my IP's were great!!! They are great parents to the twins they have and they will be great adding an addition to there family!! We really enjoyed our time with them!! We are all looking forward to our January transfer. The RE told me I should have a Calendar by end of next week.. I need to be buying pregnancy tests once a week so my bill is not so high buying them all at once ;-) I should be starting meds some time in December. Time is flying so I know transfer will be here before we know it!!

For now I am getting ready for Black Friday!!! woohoo. Let the craziness begin!!! I havent even seen the ads yet. I need to go online and look. I may not need anythign but I hope I do cause I look forward to this day!!!

Friday!!

2010-11-10T18:23:00.002-06:00

Yay. Friday my husband and I fly to Chiago for the day to do bloodwork and a sonogram. Then we go to lunch and actually meet our IP's in person and then they take us back to the airport to come home. I am very excited and so are they. This means things are finally moving along. Then I should have a calendar in a week or two!! Woohoo. Just wanted to post a small update!! I cant wait to be taking pregnancy tests!!! We all know how I am a freak about them. hahaha. I only took about 30 last time ;-)

Small update

2010-10-15T13:39:00.002-05:00

I got the email. LOL. Just the email telling me when my RE appt is. I will do some tests and things that day and my husband will have some bloodwork done that day. The RE is planning a January transfer. So it looks like December is out of the question now. I cant wait for January!! LOL. But dont go to fast cause xmas is sooo close already and I need more time :-) Thats it for now. Hope you enjoyed the pics of the twins. xoxo

Hey

2010-10-13T20:45:00.004-05:00

Still nothing new. I was hoping to have heard from the RE by now. She told me that she mailed me some papers and when i get them to give her a call. So I am hoping that I get them tomorrow. So there isnt anything else new with this journey yet. Sorry

I have new pics of my surrotwins. They were 6 months a few days ago!! I cant believe how time flies. I miss them little ones and the sister and parents. Here are some new pics of there baptism

Mena ~ Big Sister

Isabel

Isabel

Jeronimo

Jeronimo

Daddy, Mommy, Twins, Mena

Long overdue

2010-10-01T12:50:00.002-05:00

Sorry I havent posted in so long. I didnt realize it had been a month. Right now there is not a lot going on. I am waiting for the RE to call me to set up my meeting with them. Then I will have a transfer date. And Contracts are getting worked on now also. I am figuring it is gonna end up being a January transfer. We were hoping for December but I hearing that the RE is closed the month od December. I am not sure if that is true though. I will find out as soon as they call. It was suppose to be this week but I just got an email saying they are waiting on a phone call from my IP's. SO hopefully I hear back from them the end of day or beginning of next week.

Right now I am just spending a lot of time with my family. I know once I am pregnant it gets harder to do some things. I see that my followers are now at 39!! Thats awesome. I never expected to have any followers except for my family and friends that know me. So I am very excited to see the number of my followers rise. Thanks so much for following my boring blog :-)

Long overdue Update

2010-08-30T08:57:00.004-05:00

Sorry I have not posted in awhile. Life has been CRAZY!! We went to Acapulco to see Ray, Ale and the kids. We were there for like 8 days. We had a blast and the babies have gotten huge!!! They are sooo cute. We had such a great time with all of them.. I will add some pictures for everyone to see.

I am matched with a new couple. It is the couple I talked about that has twins. I am medically cleared and had my psych eval done. Now I should be getting an RE appt anyday to fly to Chicago to meet the RE and do any bloodwork I need done. We are still hoping for a December transfer. They only have one embryo left so fingers crossed that it 'sticks' around and implants. I will keep you updated as to when my dr appt is. Here are the pics I promised you.

Me my husband and the twins. I am holing Isabel and Jerimy is holding Jeronimo

Wow I birthed all 4 of these kids!! LOL. My daughter Brianna is on left. with Isabel. My son Dylan is on right with Jeronimo.

All the kids. Dylan(my son) holding Isabel(surrodaughter), Brianna (my daughter) holding Jeronimo (surroson), and Ximena (Isabel & Jeonimos sister). Arent they all cuties????

Me, Brianna, Nathan (my cousin), Dylan, Jerimy on the beach.

I'm matched!!!

2010-07-17T22:46:00.003-05:00

I have matched with a wonderful couple!! I don't wanna mention any names yet since idk if they want there names used. If they dont want them used I will make up nicknames or letters for them. They r in Illinois! So it is fairly close to us. And they just had twin girls in February via a surrogate. So they know how the process works!! We r planning a transfer in December or January. I have to meet with there RE first to make sure that is possible and we need to get contracts going too. They have 1 embryo left. So the first transfer will only be one embryo. So we will need all your fingers crossed and all the prayers you can give. If the first transfer does not work we will start aain and cycle again. My family and I r very excited about this journey and r sooo happy to be matched an starting things!! I couldnt wait to tell all of you!!

Also I just wanted to mention that if anyone reading this is a surro or wants to be one I am working with an amazing agency. This is my 2nd journey with this agency. So if you need an agency please contact Family Source Consultants. And ask for Zara. Tell her Kim recommended her on her blog. She should know who it is. If not give her my blog address or name.

Thanks for reading and following my journeys!! Xoxo

Not much to say

2010-06-29T22:36:00.002-05:00

Sorry I have not updated in awhile. There is not much to say. I may be matching with a couple from IL. Not sure yet though. I wanna make sure they wanna transfer by the end of this year. I want to be matched and transfer before this year is over. I am hoping I match soon and then things will roll from there.

We are going to Mexico in 4 weeks!! We cant wait to go see Ray, Ale, Mena, and the twins!! They will be almost 4 months old when we r down there. I cant wait to cover them in kisses. Plus we are excited to be going on vacation with them. I will update you in a few days when i hear back from the agency!! :0)

2010-06-05T11:14:00.002-05:00

Sorry it has been a week. I just dont have anything to report. Still looking for a couple to help. My agency told me about a couple that lives in Illinois. They just had twins around 4 months ago via a Surrogate. They are looking to match again soon and transfer towards the end of this year. So she sent my profile to them. They have not updated theres yet. They are working on it. I am sure with twins they are just busy :) So instead she sent mine to them while they update theres. She thinks we will be a good match. I like that they used a surrogate before and they live in a state next to mine so the are not far away. I will let you know what I find out when I hear something.

2010-05-27T15:27:00.003-05:00

I am still looking at profiles with my agency. I am not rushing cause I have plenty of time. My main concern is to take my time and pick the right couple. I wanna have another GREAT journey.

I went to the DR yesterday for my 6 weeks checkup. And everything was fine. She is gonna be faxing me a letter saying when I can get pregnant again. The nurse practitioner said usually they say in 6 months. So that sounds good to me.

I am also gonna have my video montage of the surrogacy done in the next few days. I had to wait for Ale to send me copies of the U/S photos again. She said she would send them tonight. So I should be able to make it soon. I cant wait to make it and share it with everyone.

Looking for IP's

2010-05-19T22:06:00.002-05:00

I am still looking. The Agency I am with has sent me like 5 or so. I liked 2 couples a lot and one of them was not financially ready after all and the other couple was happy with my profile but when they called the RE they work with he said he wouldnt work with me till I was 18 months post partum!! WTF??? I have never heard of an RE saying that... Most say 4-6 months and some say 1 yr. So obviously they were not able to pick me as there surrogate. I am suppose to be getting like 3 more profiles to look at in the next day or so. I hope I find a great couple soon.

1 Month Old today!!

2010-05-11T22:58:00.003-05:00

Jeronimo & Isabel are 1 month old today!! I cant believe it!!! They are growing so fast. I cant wait to see them again in August!!

I have been looking at profiles still. It is really hard. I feel like I am cheating on Ray & Ale. LOL. I know I am not, but it is still weird. And looking at profiles is soo hard too. Its like I can only help one couple and all the others have to wait till there match comes along. I know they all want a baby so bad but I have to pick by what I think will be a great match for me. Its just so hard. Hopefully I find a good match soon and that part will be over with then. I just keep saying God will watch over me and make sure I make the right decision.